Through The Window..

Getting myself back on the track…

  
 Spending months over some unwanted jobs in an unpleasant environment was creating bit choking type of feelings which could be no longer be bothered. I am feared I am forced to become ruthless. “CHOKING HAZARD”. Time seemed to be quite longer than any time before; actually proving the relativity theory of TIME given by Sir Einstein. Matters of yesterdays seemed to be some event of the medieval…”RUSTING MIND”. Can’t bear this anymore. I missed the rustling sound of the leaves beside the river side banyan tree; sitting at the step of the stem and dangling legs. I don’t even know why things started to change all of a sudden! I never have thought of such a situation ever before…”NUMB”!

   How could fate be so upsurge in its behavior to me..??? Since that evening when I was all alone the stadium gleaming at the only brightest object at the sky I decided to blame my fate for any sort of unexpected unwanted unbearable nuisance occurring to me ”DEPRESSED”! All the time I had to kill my dreams, get the other on its place and kill another again and get it replaced with more others waiting to get its place; but none of them did knew of the fact that they too won’t survive much long. But there is always a dim flame out of a wick in my heart of not conquering in my Love but Succeeding in it…hope still awake. At least I can do my job; I can at least keep faith of the Love within and proceed…and this fact is inevitable too that every time I knock the door it is sure to get opened, but certainly would shut with slam…”ANXIOUS”!  

    Looking at the blue heaven on the other side of the window after a long time really exclaims me a lot. Days back I went to such a hill station where for the last time I saw such a clear sky. But it’s not such that I have never went under the open sky during the first few hours of the day for all these days up here, it is not that true that the sky has not sheltered those autumn ‘Cirrus’, ‘Nimbus’ for all these days long, it is something like I have never even have bothered to look up there with eyes filled with hope…”EXQUISITE”.. Oh, yeah I just have found a day remembered when for the last time I saw clouds and the Skylark diving high-lows and peeping. The day was when I was brought here in a police vehicle after the sudden broken war broke out of the bandits and the cops where I was the only supposed unwanted object. I was shot at my knee-cap during the counter attack by the local cops…”EXTREME PAIN”.. As no ambulance was available, I was brought up by the cop’s van. I was faint and was on the way to the recovery camp with other injured police-men on their personalized vehicle where finding a drop of water would seem to be a much difficult job for one seeking to meet thirst than to find barrel cartridges. When I found myself back on earth little hope to survive, I saw me to be partly clashed between the other two injured cops being placed I the middle of them…”OUCH!!” Dimly could be seen those bright white clouds and the blue sky. I thought for once that even in this worse conditions around there’s so joy filled up there at the heaven…one can find ultimate peace of his eyes and get out of the pain due to a bullet being stuck for hours in a leg just giving a calm look at the sky…”REVIVED”.

     I wonder how things turn out to be changed all of a sudden without any forecast. And those few small diametric changes brings out massive changes in our life; unfolding many hidden chapters of reality of our lifespan that we always are keen to know or to just get them unknown even by cheating ourselves ”DEATH IS INEVITABLE”! But there are still some facts of life that doesn’t affect some group of people. They don’t even try to escape the raw bitter truth…cause they have gone through those spell-binding and un-spelt chapters of life which they too would have never have expected to happen to them; the facts they can’t refuse; the bitter truth they cant even drop and run away. Alike those previous sort of categorized people, they too have once faced some trauma whose arrival wasn’t expected so soon in the individual’s life ”TRAVIAL”. There are certain people who keep on refusing to change their opinions, way of behaving when other people try to persuade them; they always try to seek options of their way.. the ways that suits them…the mistake they do is by chasing the way the matter should be in their views rather  trying different ideas “OBSTINATE”.

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